We sleep with our eyes open.

<3 Jesse

Wowzers.

Hmmm…it has been a while since I posted a blog. I guess you can say I have some updates.

So here goes…

These past few weeks have been interesting.

Lets just say I truly believe everything happens for a reason.

And if a certain someone didn’t stop talking to me, I would have not started talking to a certain person. Because I am in a relationship with someone who makes me smile all the time. He officially asked me last night 06.14.2010

I am happy. =]

Lets just type away…

Well…I have not really blogged on here in forever. I am currently sitting in front of my laptop as I type this random blog. I really do not have much updates. Well…I kind of do have updates, but nothing interesting. Mostly complicated situations. But no one wants to read a blog from a Confused Connie. LOL.

Today was a fun filled day. Spent the day with the twin aunties, loffers and godson in Coronado. The weather was beautiful. It was your good ol’ San Deezy weather.

It was a much needed day out, especially with everything that has been going on in my life. I love my loffers and aunties for being there and listening to me. I especially heart my loffers…aka…my mentWHORES. LOL!!

Gosh…life and its many wonders. I am still trying to take everything in.

On a happier note...

I got my hurr did yesterday. And I absolutely love it. It is something different. Mos def a drastic change...which I needed.









<3 Jesse

Untitled.

I wasn't being ignored. He had his reasons.

But something else came up and now it is even more complicated. I cannot say what it is because it is his business. But it just kind of took me by surprise.

I am his friend and will be there for him.

<3 Jesse

Silence.

Yep random blog posts are always fun.

The sound of silence is deafening. Hello not so positive thoughts.

Am I being emo? Naaah not really. Just bummed the hell out.

I need to stop thinking about stuff. Blah. Hahaha.

La la la laaaaame.

<3 Jesse

As I wait...

So...I am currently waiting in my car as my bff sobers up.

As I wait...I am left with my own thoughts. And right now I am not in the best state of mind.

You know what it is? People. More specifically...men. Wait I should say...boys. Because I have yet to meet a man. Hah.

Seriously dating sucks. I truly do wish I can just fast forward a little. Skip the dating.

I am 25 and am getting a whole lotta life lessons all at once. It is overwhelming.

I am bummed about a certain person. I thought he was different. But now I just do not know. Who knows I could be jumping to conclusions and he is just super busy. I'll give him the benefit of the doubt.

I am just being a Negative Nancy. Hey I can't help it. It's what I do best. I guess it is because I have been let down a few times...it feels routine. I should be used to being ignored by now. It's nothing new. But everytime it does happen it brings me down a little bit more.

Whatever I guess.

My heart is fragile and I put it in Gods hands. I have faith he will take care of it.

It does hurt though. And being emotionally hurt is the worst pain.

<3 Jesse