VLOG IV.

Rambling me!! from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

Soundtrack to my life.

The lyrics below is the song to how Ive been feeling. Tis a great song. Soundtrack to my life.

Face Up by Lights

It's late and I am tired, wish I could spark your smile
The place is flying high but right now I wanna be low
Don't wanna move an inch, let alone a million miles
And I don't wanna go but I know I gotta go

I just want to feel alive

The times you don't wanna wake up
'Cause in your sleep it's never over when you give up
The sun is always gonna rise up
You need to get up, gotta keep your head up

Look at the people all around you
The way you feel is something everybody goes through
Dark out but you still gotta light up
You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up

Seems like the more you grow the more time you spend alone
Before you know it you end up perfectly on your own
The city's shining bright but you don't see the light
How can you concentrate on things that don't make you feel right?

I just want to feel alright

The times you don't wanna wake up
'Cause in your sleep it's never over when you give up
The sun is always gonna rise up
You need to get up, gotta keep your head up

Look at the people all around you
The way you feel is something everybody goes through
Dark out but you still gotta light up
You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up

I'm looking for more than a little bit
I'm gonna have to find my way through it
Gonna leave a mark, I'm gonna set a spark
I'm coming up off the ground, I won't be looking down

The times you don't wanna wake up
'Cause in your sleep it's never over when you give up
The sun is always gonna rise up
You need to get up, gotta keep your head up

Look at the people all around you
The way you feel is something everybody goes through
Dark out but you still gotta light up
You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up



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People, people, people.

Sometimes I just do not understand people.

'Nuff said.


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Insecurity at it's finest.

Well insecurity with a touch of self conciousness. Yes that is what I am feeling at the moment.

I'm not being emo. Really. Hahaha. Just how I feel at the moment. Lame right? But come on...who doesn't feel like that once in a while?

I am a turtle. Yes, I am always in my shell. I don't like the sound of a hermit. Sounds funny...so I will stick with turtle.

Yah randomness for the day. Gotta love it.


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Another day has come and gone…

I love rainy and cold weather…combined equals a nice relaxing day at home in front of the laptop. LOL!

Today I woke up around 11am…yes another sleep in Sunday. Got up, had my morning shake and got ready to run some errands. I had to hit up the Apple store and return something and buy a new case of the good ol’ iPhone. Then went over to WallyMart and bought a few necessities.

Now I am home just hanging out, updating iPhone, updating blogs and just chillin’ before hitting up the gym later tonight.

Hmmm…what should I blog about? I have no interesting topics at the moment.

Well, I guess this really isn’t an update huh? Hahaha.

Okay…journal update instead.

LATERz!

The One Man.

There is only one man in my life that has not let me down. He has been there for me through all the drama, all the hardships, the heartbreaks and heartaches, the good times, the fun times, the worst times, and everything in between. And that is God.

I had a conversation with my cousin a few days ago and we were talking about being in relationships. We are both single. And we both want to be with a Godly person. And you know…we both came realize that we are not completely alone or totally single. We are in a relationship with God.

I am happy to say that I have a relationship with God. He is the one man that will never let me down.

<3 Jesse

Happy Valentine’s Day <3

Or if you are single…Happy SAD [Singles Awareness Day]. LOL!

Naaaah tis not a sad day at all. It just means that if you are single…and you have no Valentine today you are just another Valentine’s day closer to your true love.

Besides who needs one calendar day a year to celebrate love? It should be every darn day! Yaaaah hurrrrd?!

Well, I should be writing all this junk in my journal, but I haven’t been keeping up with it. I haven’t had the time. I used to be able to journal write every day. But with school, work, working out and hula going on I haven’t had the time to sit down with my journal in front of me and a pen in my right hand and WRITE. Believe me…I have a lot on my mind but right now its being stored in the back for later writing sessions. Blogging is a little more convenient, I have a blog app on my iPhone which allows me to blog wherever and whenever I want. As for my journal, it is in my bookshelf, collecting dust for the time being.

To end this entry…

I wish all those who have someone this Valentine’s Day a very happy one and may your love continue to grow.

And for those who are single [like myself] do not feel sad because you do not have a Valentine, he or she, is out there and you two will be together someday. Be patient and let everything fall into place.

<3 Jesse

Love and Soulmates.

Valentines Day is just around the corner...a Hallmark holiday at it's finest. Time for chocolates, roses and gifts to express your love to your signiciant other.

BUT you do not need this one day a year to express how you feel to someone. Everyday should feel like Valentine's day when you are with your love.

I am single and I am not sad that I do not have a Valentine. I am all good in the hood. LOL. Maybe next year I will have one. Who knows what lies ahead. That is one of the best parts of life...the unknown and the journey to get there...whatever/wherever it may be.

So why the subject of Love and Soulmates? Well I was thinking it would make a great topic to vlog about since V-day is this Sunday and my first three vlogs were pretty much pointless. Annnd I just wanted to ramble about love and soulmates. Hahaha. But I am at work and on my lunch break...and I mos def cannot record video here at work (gotta love HIPPA). Lol. So blog it is!

Love - to love is to lose yourself in an ocean of pure bliss.

Have I ever been in love? Honestly...I have no idea. My first relationship which was the last relationship I was in, was fun. I guess I loved him but wasn't "in love" with him. Cliche, I know. First boyfriend at 20 years old. It was all so new to me. No regrets though.

My BFF4L and I were text chatting last night and she texted me something that touched my heart. Here is our convo -

Me : Hahahaha! Yes Lily pad he is adorable. Mmhmmm! But in my head homie skillet has a gf and is not available. LOL!

Lily : Why burst the bubble? Daydreaming is healthy..besides you never know. Life is funny Jess...you never know

Me : Hahahaha! My bubbles always burst. My life story when it comes to guys. Always the best girl buddy never the gf. But you're right doesn't hurt to daydream. LOL.

Lily : You'll see... I used to feel like you...just when you least expect..Bam! lol

Me : Hahaha! Okay Lil I will listen to you. I am patiently waiting for my bam! Hahaha. You are my big sis!! I look up to you!

Lily : Aww jessie

Me : Tis true my dear friend. You've been a great friend to me in the months we have known each other than friends I've had since elementary. You're stuck with me. SORRY! LOL!!

Lily : (1 of 3) Aww I feel the same way about you. I can picture you being one of my bridesmaids one day. You're a great girl, and have a lot to offer. Men now a days (2 of 3) don't know how to value a great woman when they see one. Although I'm positive that this life is taking you on a great path. You just wait..one day (3 of 3) you'll look back on all this Jess
.....

The conversation carries on a little bit more after that. Anyhoo...what she said above really touched me. And you know I'm okay with waiting for the right guy to come along. Waiting patiently pays off. So I am waiting patiently...he will come along and I have faith in God that he will lead him to me when the time is right for the both of us.

Soulmates - to be part of a whole heart that beats to a beautiful melody.

I truly believe in soulmates.

Relationships to me is more than just the title of boyfriend and girlfriend. It's being bestfriends, companions, half of a whole heart...being one.

Sounds all mushy gushy but hey I am a hopeless romantic...I admit it. It doesn't hurt to be one. People have told me that none of that exists. They can believe what they want. And I will keep on believing.

To be in love with your soulmate must be a wonderful feeling. And I am excited to feel that one day.

My lunch break is over.

To be continued...

Keep a look out for : Love and Soulmates [part deux]

<3 Jesse


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Hmmm…

Question of the night – QOTN :

How do you know when someone is flirting with you?

I am completely clueless when it comes to stuff like that. LOL! My BFF4L Lily said that someone was flirting with me. I could not tell. HAHAHA! Its funny really. I mean we were just talking. But anyways…yes, how can you tell?

My cousin tried explaining it to me, but I still don’t get it. HAHAHA!  And Lily said she can just tell.

Ah well. I am just gonna be me and roll with it. Hahaha.

<3 Jesse

Recorded 02.06.2010

VLOG #3 - 02.06.2010 from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

Vlog or Blog?

I have a butt load of updates! To blog it? Or vlog it? That is theeee question. Hmmm?

LOL!