Friday, March 26, 2010

I am ready...

Being the hopeless romantic that I am [I don't] I have been in love with a song by India.Arie titled Ready to Love. The lyrics pretty much sums up how I feel about the L word [LOVE in case you were wondering] Hahaha. On a semi serious note...I am ready for that in my life. And I am patiently waiting for it to happen. Le sigh...I am waiting for the one to sweep me off my feet [cliche and corny...I know...LOL!].

Ready For Love by India.Arie

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I'd quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I've been thinking
Maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I'll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won't complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I'll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect's the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you'll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

I am ready

<3 Jesse

Monday, March 22, 2010

Viva Las Vegas!

This weekend is the cousin roadtrip to Vegas. I am uber excited! My bro isn't coming along on this trip. We are actually going clubbing for the first time in Vegas and he is not into that. So he decide to save his money for our upcoming NYC trip in August.

Anyhoo...I already have my two outfits. One for Saturday night and the other Sunday night. I am actually going to be wearing dresses! Eeegads! Hahahaha.

Then during the day it is kick back.

Pictures and video will be posted for sure. I am mos def bringing my laptop. Haha.

Yaaaayyyyyy! Here we come Vegas!

<3 Jesse

Friday, March 12, 2010


Friday!! Yay! Finally the weekend has arrived. Thank goodness. I am ready to chill out.

Well, actually I have a lot of things to do this weekend. Hopefully I finish everything. Lol.

Last night was fun times with loffer. Got our nails did and had an awesome workout. Always great times when hanging out her loffer.

She gave me some advice about being
more confident and sticking up for myself. I shouldn't let certain people walk all over me and treat me like [insert S word here]. She is absoultely right. I've put up with peoples bull for a while now. And I still have patience and hope that these people will change. hope is fading slowly and it bums me out that I feel that way.

Le sigh.

<3 Jesse

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Holy Trinity.

Oh how I missed these guys!

It was so awesome to hangout once again. My two male besties - Ra & Krod are super duper cool for coming down to Eastlake Tavern & Bowl to hang with me. It's been a while since the three of us were together. I see Ra on a semi regular basis...but as for Krod I think it has been a year since the last time I saw him. I missed my little big bro! I missed both of them! Bowling, food, beer and amazing company - priceless.

Great times. The trinity reunites!

<3 Jesse

Time is precious.

Have you ever been there for someone through hard times, good times, and everything in between and in the end you feel like you ended up just wasting your time?

Well, I don't want to say a complete waste of time...whole heartedly tried to help and give the best advice I could. And it just didn't help. And it makes me feel like the whole thing was just pointless. I don't want to feel that way. But I do. And it saddens me big time.

Oh well. I'm here if they need advice or someone to talk to. I have decided to not ask them what's going on or what their problem is anymore. They can come to me. I am here and will always be there for them.

As of last weekend...I am in my own little world. No more drama, no more things/issues will bring me down.

I am 25 years old and I really do not need unnecessary gray clouds in my blue sky.

Lol. Great analogy huh?

I really do not need to be in drama that is so high school-ish either.

Time is precious. Why waste it on negativity? You're only young once and you only live once, enjoy every second with a smile and a happy heart.

I can honestly say after completely blowing away the "gray clouds" I am truly happier. I feel lighter (and it's not just the major weightloss

I've started a brand new journal...a different way of writing in a journal actually. It is called Letters to God Journal and with each new entry you start off with 'Dear God'. And you just start to write as if you were talking to Him. Oh my gosh it has helped me so much. I have never been a religous type of person before. Yah I went to church a few Sundays. I know God is real and I know Jesus is real. But I didn't have a real relationship with Him. And with the love and support of my family and friends I have come to build a relationship with God. And it is still growing. I am mos def looking forward to my walk with Him...the journey is going to be amazing. I can feel it in my bones. Lol.

Sorry for the longness of this post. I don't write in my journals anymore. It's all blogging. I only have my Letters to God Journal now.

Okay til next time...

<3 Jesse

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Purity Ring.

I got a new purity ring today. The one my Mother gave me on my 21st birthday is so big on my finger. After losing 40 lbs my fingers shrank. So today after church my aunt and I went to Berean Christian Store and I purchased a new purity ring for myself. It is a sterling silver band with “True Love Waits” engraved on it. It is so pretty. I love it! The one my Mom gave me I put it in a small pouch and put it away for safe keeping.


Really?! That's all I have to say about that.


<3 Jesse

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Perfectly Imperfect.

The perfect relationship is the imperfect one.

Being single is not bad at all, but s0metimes it would be nice to have that great companionship with someone. The horo [hopeless romantic] in me is speaking right now. LOL!

It is Saturday night and I am home relaxin’ and listening to the rain while blogging.

Hmmm…what else to type? I actually do not have much to say. Ah well.

<3 Jesse


Tupperware must be in fashion.

HAH! I made a funny! Get it? Tupperware, meaning plastic, meaning fake!

That is my random outburst for the night.


Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Class, bleh!

Yes I am in class and I am blogging! while I am typing up my lecture notes. LOL. That is how I roll.

Hmmm…thank goodness the week is almost over. I cannot wait to relax this weekend and catch up on school stuff.

Also I am planning on getting a video camera this weekend. I bought a video camera from my good friend…I wanna say I bought it off of him last year. But my Dad has it now. Hahaha. He loves it. Soooo I wanna get another one. I actually want an HD camera. I currently use a Flip Ultra HD camera to record my vlogs. It is convenient to carry around in my bag…and super cute!

Actually I am debating. I could get a standard definition one. I do not necessarily need an HD one. Hmmm. Decisions, decisions. I am looking into a Canon Vixia HF 20. I know I want a camera with a hard drive and takes an SD card…so dual. I need to do more research before I splurge on a camera. Hahaha.

Ooooh I got my bowling shoes yesterday. I am still waiting for my bowling ball to arrive. So excited! This Friday night we have a family bowling night. Its just gonna be my parental units, broski and I. Its going to be fun!!

Then this coming Tuesday I will bowling with my two BFF’s – Ra and Krod. I am looking forward to it. I miss those nutty guys. LOL!

<3 Jess