Tuesday, September 21, 2010


Life Is Like Poetry

Saturday, September 11, 2010

The End.

I am putting this blog to an end. Confessions of a Wallflower has served me well. Tis time for a brand new one. A new blog where I will actually keep updated with new thoughts and all kinds of stuff. LOL.

New blog is currently being created...

Thursday, September 2, 2010


It has been a while since I have really blogged. Actually I do not think I actually, truly blog. HAH! I pretty much just type away. Actually I haven’t really journaled in a while either. I have a library of journals filled with my thoughts and feeling [started at the good ol’ age of 10] – and now I have not written a single word down. I need to get back into it…pronto. 

Saturday, August 21, 2010


As you know...I crashed my Altimina exactly four weeks ago. And today I have replaced my Altimina [may she be happy in junkyard heaven] with a brand new 2010 Toyota Venza.

I cannot believe how long it takes to purchase a vehicle. I think I aged like five years in the course of four hours. Insane.

Despite the exhausting hours of waiting and signing away my soul to the dealership devil...when the salesperson handed me my key and shook my head...I felt HAHAHA! It was a nice and scary feeling indeed.

At first I was a little hesitant to sign. I was actually thinking about backing out. But my Mother made an excellent point. The only reason why I felt so nervous and scared was because I would be purchasing a car on my own. And if I didn't do it now, when? So I manned up and went for it. And I must say...after my last signature the butterflies fluttered away.

I absolutely adore my new ride. It feels so awesome driving it. Like it was meant for me. Weird huh?

I need to name my Venza. Hmmm...think, think, thiiinnnnk.


Saturday, August 14, 2010

Movie date [08.13.2010] and randomness with my love.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

My Sailor <3


[EN2 Miller]

Photo Courtesy of the U.S. Navy

Pitter Patter.

Yay for the week being half way over...surprisingly the days have been going by pretty fast. Well, for once work is going smoothly with no high priority projects or back log. Just regular work...wahoo! Haha.

I received an email last night from my sailor. He always makes my day even brighter. I really miss him. Even though we have been together officially two months this Saturday...time does not matter. I love him with all my heart. I may sound like a total cheeseball but I truly do love him. I love him more and more each day. I can't wait until he comes back to me.

Okay I'm done gushing. Hahahaha.

<3 Jesse

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

[08.10.10] Things To Do :

-CJA 229 Week 2 Assignments/Discussion
-CJA 229 Online lecture & chat @ 5:30 PST
-Review for CJA 229 midterm!! Ahhhh!!
-Video/Photo Project
-Spruce up blog layout
-Workout [non-impact]
-Email my Sailor
-Check out classes at Grossmont
-Apply at other hospitals for volunteering

<3 Jesse

Monday, August 9, 2010

Monday, Monday!

Today was a very slow day at work, it lagged major!

After work I had my weekly weigh-in/blood pressure check at my doctors office. Good news…I did not gain much weight. I did gain three pounds…but only due to my swollen legs. Also my blood pressure is waaaaay NORMAL! Thank goodness! Finally I have normal bp. No more hypertension. Hollah!

Anyways…while at work I did my research for applying to USD for the Nurse Practitioner program. I already have taken four out of the nine prereqs for the program.

Intro Psych
English Comp
Speech/Public Speaking

Human Anatomy
Human Physiology
Cultural Anthropology

HELLO COMMUNITY COLLEGE!! I think I am still enrolled at Grossmont [I need to check on that].

I am going to take the required courses in the Spring. I’ll be done with my BA this December…and if I recall, Spring semester starts in January.

I am really, really hoping for USD.

And there is Law School…but that is still up in the air. Hahaha.

I am also going to start volunteering. I already filled out an application for Sharp Mary Birch Hospital for Women. I hope I get into the program. It would be totally rad!

Also…gotta start studying for GRE’s!! Aaaahhhh! I suck at tests. Seriously I do not do well. I need to get on it pronto. LOL.

Hmmm…what else…oh I am currently working on a video/photo montage as a surprise for my Sailor. I hope to get it done by this Friday. Well if he reads my blog it isn’t a surprise anymore. HAHAHA! Oh well. It is going to be awesome. I just started it today. So far…so good. YAY!

I have more to blog but I will save for future posts. I need to lay down. My legs are killing me! Running yesterday was a big NO NO. I have not fully recovered from my car accident. I just feel so BLAH and I miss working out. So I decided to run yesterday and now my legs are swollen. =[

'til next time!

<3 Jesse

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Cousin Hangout 07.30.2010

Cousins!! from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

An email a day...

makes me happy. Hahaha. So far Joshy and I have been corresponding via email at least once a day.

When I get an email from him my pain seems to go away...even for a split second. He makes me smile =]

I've sent him short videos of myself just randomly talking and saying that I love him and miss him...gotta love technology today.

I really do miss my sailor.

Currently I am at work on my lunch break. I am in so much pain it is absolutely redonk. I can't sit still. It hurts just to sit. I have a doctors appt this Friday. Hopefully everything is all good.

Seriously car accidents are no bueno. LOL.

<3 Jesse

Sunday, July 25, 2010


My poor Altamina is in junkyard heaven.  So it is time for a new car. It really doesn’t matter to me what kind of car, as long as I can get from point A to point B.

Here are some pictures of what kinda catches my interest. =]


Honda – Accord


Dodge - Charger


Hyundai- Sonata (My bestie has this car. I must say it is very pretty.)

Home-ing it hardcore.

Another mellow Sunday.

I am still sore and swollen all over and bruises are starting to appear. I have  a gnarly one across my abdomen where I had my seat belt on. Hurts like crazy. Lol.

I received an email from my Joshy early this morning. Totally made my day. Even after a long 24 hrs, he still managed to email me before getting some sleep. I know I say this over and over again…but I really do miss him. Ten months better go by quick or I will bust a cap on someone. LOL!

I think I will be going back to work on Tuesday. My hours were used up for the day of the accident. So I am going to take the hit and have a day with no pay. I’m not ready to go back tomorrow. I thought I was.

I didn’t make it out to church this morning with my parental unit. It is still a little hard for me to sit down and stand up. I told my Mom I would just go to The Flood later tonight, but she said no. More specifically she said “Jessamyn, you can go next week.” Hahaha. When she says my first name…she is mad. HAHAHA! I love my Mother.

Right now everyone is gone. Mom and Broski went to Bestbuy and Dad went to buy food.

My Nanay is in the hospital. She is in the ER and is having some tests done on her kidneys. I pray she will be okay and get out of there asap.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Hospital Visits.

While I was in the hospital amazing people visited me. My family came over and visited me. My best friends came
and visited me. Annnd my boyfriend visited me.

My cousins and auntie Rosalie were the first to visit. They stopped by the hospital
before heading to my Inays house. They came straight from LA. I love those kids.

Second my auntie Alpha and Lewie came. Lew gave me a small teddy bear, who I named Quantico (my trauma nickname).

Junbug came next. Awesome seeing him, great buddy!

Then Ra and Krod came! My besties! I was happy to see those two knuckle heads. Lol. Always fun times with those two. I missed them and was happy they came and visited me.

Lastly, my dearest Joshy visited me around 11pm. Auntie Alpha called his ship so they can inform him of my accident. They never relayed the message. Joshy found out from auntie Alphas text message and voicemail. Josh was kinda concerned about not getting the message so he talked to his chief. And went through some
other people and they gave him permission to leave and visit me. He had to be back by 2am. My Dad picked him from the base and brought him over. It was so great to see him before left. He mos def made my night =]

He sailed away Friday morning and I miss him so much.

<3 Jesse


I really miss my Joshy. Ten months is such a long time. Butt I will wait patiently for him. I love him so much.

<3 Jesse

Friday, July 23, 2010

Car Accident 07.22.2010

<3 Jesse

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Last night with Joshy.

I am sad and he has not even left yet. Right now he is sitting across from me on his laptop and I am on mine blogging away.

He took me to Sunset Cliffs today, but there was no sunset. Haha. It was cloudy all day. But it was still nice to see the ocean and just to be there with him. We took pictures and he took video. Lol. It was really, really nice to be there with him. We talked, goofed around and just held each other =]

I love him so much and I am sad he is leaving me for possibly 10 months. I do understand that he has to serve his country…he is property of the US Navy. Lol. I am just sad to have him leave me for so long.

The first year of our relationship he will be away at sea. This will be a test to our relationship. I will be here when he returns…I made a promise to wait for him.

I am going to miss him so much.

I am hoping 10 months will fly by. I gotta keep busy so that I am not always thinking about him being so far away.

I am going to blog regularly again. I miss writing.

I am going to drop him off at the base. I am not going to cry! I am so not going to cry! What am I saying…I am totally going to cry.

Our promise rings <3

<3 Jesse

Sunset Cliffs

07.21.2010 with my love.

<3 Jesse

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Today Joshy went underway and he will be gone until Thursday. Then he has duty Friday. So I will not see him until Saturday. Ugh. I miss him. Like for reallys miss him and he's only gone for a few days. When he's gone for 9 months I don't know how I'm going to handle it. Sheesh. Seriously it is going to be tough cookies.

<3 Jesse

Monday, July 12, 2010


Only 11 more days and my dear Joshy will be sailing the ocean blue. I am sad that the first year of our relationship he will be at sea. This will be a test to our relationship. I love him dearly. And I have complete trust in him.

Golly it is going to be hard to say bye. It is not goodbye…its pretty much SEE YOU IN 9 MONTHS.

I love Joshua Matthew Miller <3

Saturday, July 10, 2010


Josh and I have promise rings...and in the inside of the bands -

J&J 6-14-10

is engraved.

<3 Jesse

Friday, July 9, 2010

I <3 Him.

July 4, 2010 - USS Halsey

<3 Jesse

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Finally...a blog entry. Lol.

I left my journal at home and I have the itch to write. And then it hit me...I haven't blogged in a while. Not a total loss after all. Lol.

Let's see...hmmm I guess I have some updates.

The past week has been nothing but June birthdays...all consecutive days! From the 25th to the 30th. Lol. Good thing I have a birthday tracker app on the iPhone. Hahaha.

Today is one of my besties birthday.

Happy Birthday Ra!!

Yesterday we got to hang out for a bit and catch up. It was fun and much needed.

What else...oh the boyfriend and I are doing swell. He is an amazing person. I am sad though...tomorrow is July 1st which means only 22 days left with him and he is off to sea for 7-9 months. I won't see him until next year! It will be a long distance relationship. My aunt said it'll be a test to our relationship. I trust him. And I am a faithful person. Absence makes the heart grow fonder =]

Work is work. And I am off from school for a week. Thank goodness my senior paper is done and over with. Turned it in on Monday. Once I clicked 'Send' I felt gooooood. Hahaha. Only six more classes to gooooo! I cannot wait to graduate.

What else?? Oooh parental unit has been gone two weeks now. And it is nice to have the house for a month. Yay for being an adult. LOL.

I think I an done.

Til next time!!

<3 Jesse

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Hello Mr. Miller

New clothes and shoes. LOL!

<3 Jesse


<3 Jesse

We sleep with our eyes open.

<3 Jesse

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


Hmmm…it has been a while since I posted a blog. I guess you can say I have some updates.

So here goes…

These past few weeks have been interesting.

Lets just say I truly believe everything happens for a reason.

And if a certain someone didn’t stop talking to me, I would have not started talking to a certain person. Because I am in a relationship with someone who makes me smile all the time. He officially asked me last night 06.14.2010

I am happy. =]

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Lets just type away…

Well…I have not really blogged on here in forever. I am currently sitting in front of my laptop as I type this random blog. I really do not have much updates. Well…I kind of do have updates, but nothing interesting. Mostly complicated situations. But no one wants to read a blog from a Confused Connie. LOL.

Today was a fun filled day. Spent the day with the twin aunties, loffers and godson in Coronado. The weather was beautiful. It was your good ol’ San Deezy weather.

It was a much needed day out, especially with everything that has been going on in my life. I love my loffers and aunties for being there and listening to me. I especially heart my loffers…aka…my mentWHORES. LOL!!

Gosh…life and its many wonders. I am still trying to take everything in.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

On a happier note...

I got my hurr did yesterday. And I absolutely love it. It is something different. Mos def a drastic change...which I needed.

<3 Jesse


I wasn't being ignored. He had his reasons.

But something else came up and now it is even more complicated. I cannot say what it is because it is his business. But it just kind of took me by surprise.

I am his friend and will be there for him.

<3 Jesse

Sunday, May 23, 2010


Yep random blog posts are always fun.

The sound of silence is deafening. Hello not so positive thoughts.

Am I being emo? Naaah not really. Just bummed the hell out.

I need to stop thinking about stuff. Blah. Hahaha.

La la la laaaaame.

<3 Jesse

As I wait...

So...I am currently waiting in my car as my bff sobers up.

As I wait...I am left with my own thoughts. And right now I am not in the best state of mind.

You know what it is? People. More Wait I should say...boys. Because I have yet to meet a man. Hah.

Seriously dating sucks. I truly do wish I can just fast forward a little. Skip the dating.

I am 25 and am getting a whole lotta life lessons all at once. It is overwhelming.

I am bummed about a certain person. I thought he was different. But now I just do not know. Who knows I could be jumping to conclusions and he is just super busy. I'll give him the benefit of the doubt.

I am just being a Negative Nancy. Hey I can't help it. It's what I do best. I guess it is because I have been let down a few feels routine. I should be used to being ignored by now. It's nothing new. But everytime it does happen it brings me down a little bit more.

Whatever I guess.

My heart is fragile and I put it in Gods hands. I have faith he will take care of it.

It does hurt though. And being emotionally hurt is the worst pain.

<3 Jesse

Wednesday, April 28, 2010


Oh mann. I think I'll go back into my shell for a while. It is a comfortable and safe place to be. The outside world is emotionally draining. And everything that has been happening so far has been disappointing. And I do not think I can handle anymore let downs.

<3 Jesse

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Dating = lameness

Mannn dating is so confusing. I don't know how people do it. This whole dating thing is so blah.

Can we just fast forward to where I meet my soulmate, get married, have children and live a wonderful life?

Is that asking too much?

Friday, March 26, 2010

I am ready...

Being the hopeless romantic that I am [I don't] I have been in love with a song by India.Arie titled Ready to Love. The lyrics pretty much sums up how I feel about the L word [LOVE in case you were wondering] Hahaha. On a semi serious note...I am ready for that in my life. And I am patiently waiting for it to happen. Le sigh...I am waiting for the one to sweep me off my feet [cliche and corny...I know...LOL!].

Ready For Love by India.Arie

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I'd quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I've been thinking
Maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I'll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won't complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I'll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect's the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you'll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

I am ready

<3 Jesse

Monday, March 22, 2010

Viva Las Vegas!

This weekend is the cousin roadtrip to Vegas. I am uber excited! My bro isn't coming along on this trip. We are actually going clubbing for the first time in Vegas and he is not into that. So he decide to save his money for our upcoming NYC trip in August.

Anyhoo...I already have my two outfits. One for Saturday night and the other Sunday night. I am actually going to be wearing dresses! Eeegads! Hahahaha.

Then during the day it is kick back.

Pictures and video will be posted for sure. I am mos def bringing my laptop. Haha.

Yaaaayyyyyy! Here we come Vegas!

<3 Jesse

Friday, March 12, 2010


Friday!! Yay! Finally the weekend has arrived. Thank goodness. I am ready to chill out.

Well, actually I have a lot of things to do this weekend. Hopefully I finish everything. Lol.

Last night was fun times with loffer. Got our nails did and had an awesome workout. Always great times when hanging out her loffer.

She gave me some advice about being
more confident and sticking up for myself. I shouldn't let certain people walk all over me and treat me like [insert S word here]. She is absoultely right. I've put up with peoples bull for a while now. And I still have patience and hope that these people will change. hope is fading slowly and it bums me out that I feel that way.

Le sigh.

<3 Jesse

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Holy Trinity.

Oh how I missed these guys!

It was so awesome to hangout once again. My two male besties - Ra & Krod are super duper cool for coming down to Eastlake Tavern & Bowl to hang with me. It's been a while since the three of us were together. I see Ra on a semi regular basis...but as for Krod I think it has been a year since the last time I saw him. I missed my little big bro! I missed both of them! Bowling, food, beer and amazing company - priceless.

Great times. The trinity reunites!

<3 Jesse

Time is precious.

Have you ever been there for someone through hard times, good times, and everything in between and in the end you feel like you ended up just wasting your time?

Well, I don't want to say a complete waste of time...whole heartedly tried to help and give the best advice I could. And it just didn't help. And it makes me feel like the whole thing was just pointless. I don't want to feel that way. But I do. And it saddens me big time.

Oh well. I'm here if they need advice or someone to talk to. I have decided to not ask them what's going on or what their problem is anymore. They can come to me. I am here and will always be there for them.

As of last weekend...I am in my own little world. No more drama, no more things/issues will bring me down.

I am 25 years old and I really do not need unnecessary gray clouds in my blue sky.

Lol. Great analogy huh?

I really do not need to be in drama that is so high school-ish either.

Time is precious. Why waste it on negativity? You're only young once and you only live once, enjoy every second with a smile and a happy heart.

I can honestly say after completely blowing away the "gray clouds" I am truly happier. I feel lighter (and it's not just the major weightloss

I've started a brand new journal...a different way of writing in a journal actually. It is called Letters to God Journal and with each new entry you start off with 'Dear God'. And you just start to write as if you were talking to Him. Oh my gosh it has helped me so much. I have never been a religous type of person before. Yah I went to church a few Sundays. I know God is real and I know Jesus is real. But I didn't have a real relationship with Him. And with the love and support of my family and friends I have come to build a relationship with God. And it is still growing. I am mos def looking forward to my walk with Him...the journey is going to be amazing. I can feel it in my bones. Lol.

Sorry for the longness of this post. I don't write in my journals anymore. It's all blogging. I only have my Letters to God Journal now.

Okay til next time...

<3 Jesse

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Purity Ring.

I got a new purity ring today. The one my Mother gave me on my 21st birthday is so big on my finger. After losing 40 lbs my fingers shrank. So today after church my aunt and I went to Berean Christian Store and I purchased a new purity ring for myself. It is a sterling silver band with “True Love Waits” engraved on it. It is so pretty. I love it! The one my Mom gave me I put it in a small pouch and put it away for safe keeping.


Really?! That's all I have to say about that.


<3 Jesse

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Perfectly Imperfect.

The perfect relationship is the imperfect one.

Being single is not bad at all, but s0metimes it would be nice to have that great companionship with someone. The horo [hopeless romantic] in me is speaking right now. LOL!

It is Saturday night and I am home relaxin’ and listening to the rain while blogging.

Hmmm…what else to type? I actually do not have much to say. Ah well.

<3 Jesse


Tupperware must be in fashion.

HAH! I made a funny! Get it? Tupperware, meaning plastic, meaning fake!

That is my random outburst for the night.


Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Class, bleh!

Yes I am in class and I am blogging! while I am typing up my lecture notes. LOL. That is how I roll.

Hmmm…thank goodness the week is almost over. I cannot wait to relax this weekend and catch up on school stuff.

Also I am planning on getting a video camera this weekend. I bought a video camera from my good friend…I wanna say I bought it off of him last year. But my Dad has it now. Hahaha. He loves it. Soooo I wanna get another one. I actually want an HD camera. I currently use a Flip Ultra HD camera to record my vlogs. It is convenient to carry around in my bag…and super cute!

Actually I am debating. I could get a standard definition one. I do not necessarily need an HD one. Hmmm. Decisions, decisions. I am looking into a Canon Vixia HF 20. I know I want a camera with a hard drive and takes an SD card…so dual. I need to do more research before I splurge on a camera. Hahaha.

Ooooh I got my bowling shoes yesterday. I am still waiting for my bowling ball to arrive. So excited! This Friday night we have a family bowling night. Its just gonna be my parental units, broski and I. Its going to be fun!!

Then this coming Tuesday I will bowling with my two BFF’s – Ra and Krod. I am looking forward to it. I miss those nutty guys. LOL!

<3 Jess

Sunday, February 28, 2010


Rambling me!! from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Soundtrack to my life.

The lyrics below is the song to how Ive been feeling. Tis a great song. Soundtrack to my life.

Face Up by Lights

It's late and I am tired, wish I could spark your smile
The place is flying high but right now I wanna be low
Don't wanna move an inch, let alone a million miles
And I don't wanna go but I know I gotta go

I just want to feel alive

The times you don't wanna wake up
'Cause in your sleep it's never over when you give up
The sun is always gonna rise up
You need to get up, gotta keep your head up

Look at the people all around you
The way you feel is something everybody goes through
Dark out but you still gotta light up
You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up

Seems like the more you grow the more time you spend alone
Before you know it you end up perfectly on your own
The city's shining bright but you don't see the light
How can you concentrate on things that don't make you feel right?

I just want to feel alright

The times you don't wanna wake up
'Cause in your sleep it's never over when you give up
The sun is always gonna rise up
You need to get up, gotta keep your head up

Look at the people all around you
The way you feel is something everybody goes through
Dark out but you still gotta light up
You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up

I'm looking for more than a little bit
I'm gonna have to find my way through it
Gonna leave a mark, I'm gonna set a spark
I'm coming up off the ground, I won't be looking down

The times you don't wanna wake up
'Cause in your sleep it's never over when you give up
The sun is always gonna rise up
You need to get up, gotta keep your head up

Look at the people all around you
The way you feel is something everybody goes through
Dark out but you still gotta light up
You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

People, people, people.

Sometimes I just do not understand people.

'Nuff said.

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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Insecurity at it's finest.

Well insecurity with a touch of self conciousness. Yes that is what I am feeling at the moment.

I'm not being emo. Really. Hahaha. Just how I feel at the moment. Lame right? But come on...who doesn't feel like that once in a while?

I am a turtle. Yes, I am always in my shell. I don't like the sound of a hermit. Sounds I will stick with turtle.

Yah randomness for the day. Gotta love it.

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Sunday, February 21, 2010

Another day has come and gone…

I love rainy and cold weather…combined equals a nice relaxing day at home in front of the laptop. LOL!

Today I woke up around 11am…yes another sleep in Sunday. Got up, had my morning shake and got ready to run some errands. I had to hit up the Apple store and return something and buy a new case of the good ol’ iPhone. Then went over to WallyMart and bought a few necessities.

Now I am home just hanging out, updating iPhone, updating blogs and just chillin’ before hitting up the gym later tonight.

Hmmm…what should I blog about? I have no interesting topics at the moment.

Well, I guess this really isn’t an update huh? Hahaha.

Okay…journal update instead.


Thursday, February 18, 2010

The One Man.

There is only one man in my life that has not let me down. He has been there for me through all the drama, all the hardships, the heartbreaks and heartaches, the good times, the fun times, the worst times, and everything in between. And that is God.

I had a conversation with my cousin a few days ago and we were talking about being in relationships. We are both single. And we both want to be with a Godly person. And you know…we both came realize that we are not completely alone or totally single. We are in a relationship with God.

I am happy to say that I have a relationship with God. He is the one man that will never let me down.

<3 Jesse

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Valentine’s Day <3

Or if you are single…Happy SAD [Singles Awareness Day]. LOL!

Naaaah tis not a sad day at all. It just means that if you are single…and you have no Valentine today you are just another Valentine’s day closer to your true love.

Besides who needs one calendar day a year to celebrate love? It should be every darn day! Yaaaah hurrrrd?!

Well, I should be writing all this junk in my journal, but I haven’t been keeping up with it. I haven’t had the time. I used to be able to journal write every day. But with school, work, working out and hula going on I haven’t had the time to sit down with my journal in front of me and a pen in my right hand and WRITE. Believe me…I have a lot on my mind but right now its being stored in the back for later writing sessions. Blogging is a little more convenient, I have a blog app on my iPhone which allows me to blog wherever and whenever I want. As for my journal, it is in my bookshelf, collecting dust for the time being.

To end this entry…

I wish all those who have someone this Valentine’s Day a very happy one and may your love continue to grow.

And for those who are single [like myself] do not feel sad because you do not have a Valentine, he or she, is out there and you two will be together someday. Be patient and let everything fall into place.

<3 Jesse

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Love and Soulmates.

Valentines Day is just around the corner...a Hallmark holiday at it's finest. Time for chocolates, roses and gifts to express your love to your signiciant other.

BUT you do not need this one day a year to express how you feel to someone. Everyday should feel like Valentine's day when you are with your love.

I am single and I am not sad that I do not have a Valentine. I am all good in the hood. LOL. Maybe next year I will have one. Who knows what lies ahead. That is one of the best parts of life...the unknown and the journey to get there...whatever/wherever it may be.

So why the subject of Love and Soulmates? Well I was thinking it would make a great topic to vlog about since V-day is this Sunday and my first three vlogs were pretty much pointless. Annnd I just wanted to ramble about love and soulmates. Hahaha. But I am at work and on my lunch break...and I mos def cannot record video here at work (gotta love HIPPA). Lol. So blog it is!

Love - to love is to lose yourself in an ocean of pure bliss.

Have I ever been in love? Honestly...I have no idea. My first relationship which was the last relationship I was in, was fun. I guess I loved him but wasn't "in love" with him. Cliche, I know. First boyfriend at 20 years old. It was all so new to me. No regrets though.

My BFF4L and I were text chatting last night and she texted me something that touched my heart. Here is our convo -

Me : Hahahaha! Yes Lily pad he is adorable. Mmhmmm! But in my head homie skillet has a gf and is not available. LOL!

Lily : Why burst the bubble? Daydreaming is healthy..besides you never know. Life is funny never know

Me : Hahahaha! My bubbles always burst. My life story when it comes to guys. Always the best girl buddy never the gf. But you're right doesn't hurt to daydream. LOL.

Lily : You'll see... I used to feel like you...just when you least expect..Bam! lol

Me : Hahaha! Okay Lil I will listen to you. I am patiently waiting for my bam! Hahaha. You are my big sis!! I look up to you!

Lily : Aww jessie

Me : Tis true my dear friend. You've been a great friend to me in the months we have known each other than friends I've had since elementary. You're stuck with me. SORRY! LOL!!

Lily : (1 of 3) Aww I feel the same way about you. I can picture you being one of my bridesmaids one day. You're a great girl, and have a lot to offer. Men now a days (2 of 3) don't know how to value a great woman when they see one. Although I'm positive that this life is taking you on a great path. You just day (3 of 3) you'll look back on all this Jess

The conversation carries on a little bit more after that. Anyhoo...what she said above really touched me. And you know I'm okay with waiting for the right guy to come along. Waiting patiently pays off. So I am waiting patiently...he will come along and I have faith in God that he will lead him to me when the time is right for the both of us.

Soulmates - to be part of a whole heart that beats to a beautiful melody.

I truly believe in soulmates.

Relationships to me is more than just the title of boyfriend and girlfriend. It's being bestfriends, companions, half of a whole heart...being one.

Sounds all mushy gushy but hey I am a hopeless romantic...I admit it. It doesn't hurt to be one. People have told me that none of that exists. They can believe what they want. And I will keep on believing.

To be in love with your soulmate must be a wonderful feeling. And I am excited to feel that one day.

My lunch break is over.

To be continued...

Keep a look out for : Love and Soulmates [part deux]

<3 Jesse

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Monday, February 8, 2010


Question of the night – QOTN :

How do you know when someone is flirting with you?

I am completely clueless when it comes to stuff like that. LOL! My BFF4L Lily said that someone was flirting with me. I could not tell. HAHAHA! Its funny really. I mean we were just talking. But anyways…yes, how can you tell?

My cousin tried explaining it to me, but I still don’t get it. HAHAHA!  And Lily said she can just tell.

Ah well. I am just gonna be me and roll with it. Hahaha.

<3 Jesse

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Recorded 02.06.2010

VLOG #3 - 02.06.2010 from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Vlog or Blog?

I have a butt load of updates! To blog it? Or vlog it? That is theeee question. Hmmm?


Wednesday, January 27, 2010

A regular blog.

So I made two videos already and its not that bad to make them. But they are two pointless ones. HAHA. Next one I’ll try to make them more interesting and actually have something to talk about. I figure this will help me be more confident in “public” speaking or just being comfortable in a whole new media. I am trying to spruce up my intro and have a decent background and I still need to get proper lighting. I think that once I get into vlogging I am going to like it. I like to talk. So might as well talk to a camera and post it on my blog. Saves my fingers from typing. Hahaha.

No one really knows about my blog. LOL! So that is a plus. I set up my settings for my blog so that when a search is done on blogger mine won’t show up. But its not private.

I’ll advertise my blog when I feel like its decent enough.


Work was so blah today! Redonk. I mean I heart the people I work with, but I really don’t like the job itself. I’m just getting  bored. It is the same thing everyday. I need a change in routine at work I guess. Oh well. I am thankful for my job, don’t get me wrong. I think I just have work ADD. LOL.

Right now I am blogging from class. Gotta love laptops. Presentations are going on and I am on my laptop blogging and surfing the web. Good times.

Like I said in my second video…the one posted today [01.27.2010], I got new glasses! I love my D&G’s. Cost me an arm and a leg [not really…LOL] but worth it. Its girlie…I love it. I love my RayBans but that is for when I go to the gym, or when I wake up and I need glasses to see. Hahaha. And my D&G’s are for work, going out, for places other than home and the gym. So yah that is one highlight right now.

K. Til tomorrow. Peace!

Random. HAHA!

Not so much of a vlog. Just a random video.

Numero Dos! from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Oh em gee. I finally did it!

VLOG 01 from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

Change the World – Adopt a Child.

Untitled from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

Here is my video for my PSY 433 class. I know its only pictures but it still took me forever to do. And my laptop kept running low on memory. Ugh. I want a Macbook. I will get one! Can’t wait. Lol.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Lazy Sundae.

Mmm an ice cream sundae sounds delish right. LOL. Gotta love being on a strict diet. No sweets whatsoever!

Anyhoo…I changed my picture in my blog header. More recent [taken yesterday]. Hahaha.

I finished my Change the World video for my class. I am going to present it tomorrow to get it over with. I am glad I am done! Wooohooo! Took me over a week to do. My laptop kept “running out of memory”. Ayyye it was a disaster. Anyhoo…it is done and I can now finally relax.

Back to reality tomorrow. Mann oh mann how time just disappears. It is absolutely redonk.

Time to blog in my weighloss blog. LOL.


<3 Me.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Super Saturday!

Well, it was an okay day. LOL. Ran a few errands today, did some shopping and chilled.

Hmmm lets see…went to Otay Lakes mall and hit up Sephora. I purchased Urban Decay black eyeliner and a pocket rocket lipgloss, MUFE lipliner and NARS lipstick [I don’t remember the name, but it is a nude color]. I am absolutely in love with nude lips. And I am into black and purple eyeliner. I have been into makeup lately…crazy! HAHAHA!

Then Walmart to buy necessities and some healthy stuff to eat. Gotta love SUPER WALMART!

Afterwards, went home to eat lunch. Then went off again to Fashion Valley to exchange a birthday gift at Juicy Couture. I got a cute tote! I did pay a 25 dollar difference…but mos def worth it.

Now home chillin’ before hitting up the gym.

K. Later. LOL!

Monday, January 18, 2010

The long weekend is over.

Well…almost over. I have had three long weekends in a row! And now after today I am back to regular work days. Dangnabit! LOL.

This weekend was pretty chill. Got  in a lot of sleep…thank goodness. Annnd got in a lot of workout sessions at the gym. I am on a roll. The best workout machine as of last night…the stair climber. I sweated more on that thing the first ten minutes than working out 30 minutes on the elliptical. It was intense. I love the feeling of sweat after an intense workout.

Hmmm…so I’ve trying to get this blog up and going. Right now it is kinda boring. I mean I don’t really have much to type. I need to get back into photography and pretty much just art in general.

I am planning on taking a photography class, found a school that is near The Rock Church that I will go check out. Annnd I am also going to take a drawing class at the Art Academy of San Diego. I wanna take some painting classes and the drawing class this prereq. So I am looking forward to that. I found all my blank canvas’, brushes, oil paints and art kit full of goodies for drawing and painting. Can’t wait to get back into that. Once this Cog Psych class is over my brain will mellow out. It is my last psych class! Wahoooo! All I have left is a stats class, and the rest are electives.

I have been pretty busy lately with school, work, hula and gym. Then I am going to add drawing classes and a photography class. I love being busy. 2010 is the year to do everything I’ve always wanted to do! Thas whasup.


Friday, January 15, 2010

My Faves!

My two favorite photographers :

David LaChapelle
Annie Leibovitz

They are amazing artists! Love them. 

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


Ugh today was not a good day. Work sucked big time. Seriously…easy ass job, good pay but lame ass management. They aren’t lame all the time. Just sometimes. As people they are cool, but them playing out their position…sucks sometimes. Oh well, I do my eight hours and I bounce. I’m not gonna be there forever. If my plans follow through I’ll be in the military by the end of the year. 

Okay…I’m over it now. LOL!.

I was pissed at work, but then I started thinking that it didn’t matter. Hahaha. I just gotta keep going forward and do what I gotta do.

I’m currently in class and I am so sleepy.

Monday, January 11, 2010

A case of the Monday blues.

I know it gets old whenever someone says they hate Mondays. But come on…it is the beginning of new week and it always starts off slow. At least it does  to me. Hah.

I feel like [insert bad word here].

I am currently in class trying to listen to a power point presentation. If I got graded on listening, I would get an F minus, minus. Lol. I made a funny!

Ahhhh! I am going nuts. I am ready to just crash out. I am so sleeeeeeeepy.

I am really, really not learning anything right now. My body is here in class, but my brain has the “DO NOT DISTURB” sign up. LOL!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Lazy Sunday.

I woke up super late today. ..11:30a!! Half my day was wasted, well not completely wasted. I managed to finally catch up on sleep. Now that is always a good thing.

But I do have a lot to do and of course I haven’t started yet. I did revamp my blog. Now its all pretty. I am not completely satisfied with it, so it will be this way temporarily until I take some new photos. I am in the process of setting up a mini studio in my room. Plus I still want to do video blogs, and that will happen soon. Most likely after my Cognitive Psychology class. It is not a fun class right now…too much busy work that needs to be done in three weeks. Seriously a semester of material in four weeks is not fun! Ugh.

Anyhoo…I guess I should start on my chores. LOL. Then I have mucho homework to do. Yikes.

<3 Jesse

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

25 Years.

Happy Birthday to me! HAHAHA!

I am now 25 years old. No longer on my Mother’s insurance policy, new drivers license with picture on the left side instead of the right, and now I am in my mid-twenties.

Mannn getting older is an adventure. And so far I must say my journey has been interesting. As I am getting older, everything is getting better. I no longer wait for things to happen for me. I now just go out there and do it. Seize the day!! Carpe Diem!! Opportunities are not only given, they must be made as well. Well, in my opinion of course.

I think I will do a little self reflection is this blog post or more like just blab on about whatever. Warning – it is going to be a lengthy one. I am going to be honest in here and just let everything all out. Why not? I mean its my blog right? Plus I am totally not paying any attention in class [LOL]. So here I gooooo…

I am happy with my life so far. I have a loving family and amazing friends. But it hasn’t always been this way…being happy that is. I mean it hasn’t been tragic or anything. There are people out there who are suffering and my problems seem like dust under a carpet compared to others. This is just what I’ve been through.

Junior high and high school was alright. Not the greatest memories, there are few memorable ones and there are some I would like to forget. I do miss my best friends from elementary all the way through high school, one is married and the other has a son.

Once we all left for college of course we all grew apart.

My early college years was a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I was sad moving to the Bay Area, but excited to experience a new place, meet new people and just enjoy the college life. I moved into my aunts place and it was a rough two years. We had our ups and downs, a lot of downs though. I love them, and we are all on good terms now, really good terms. But back then it was so hard for me to even enjoy college. I was always sad and depressed. I felt as though they didn’t want me, they were just doing my parents a favor by taking me in. It was hard and it hurt feeling like that. We had good times where I felt like I was part of their family. We are family, but its different when you move into someone else’s home.  But that is all in the past and now we are all good in the hood. I am thankful for what they did for me, and I love them very much.

I left the Bay Area after two years to come home and be with my family. At that point in my life I didn’t know what to do with myself. I left school, I left the friends that I made and I missed the Frisco city life. I ended up taking a few classes at our community college and I was dropping classes and getting C’s. I just did not know what I was doing. I took vacations out of state, I pretty much chilled out for a while. Met someone, he was my first boyfriend and it was cool for 9 months and then I broke up with him. First relationship ever in my life. I didn’t know what I was doing. I was a newb in the whole relationship thing. Hence I haven’t been in one since then. But that’s later on…

I then finally decided to go to Medical Assistant school. While doing that I was working graveyard at a medical billing company oh and I worked at Toys R Us for a bit. It was an exhausting year and half. School during the day, work at night, then extern in the morning…sheesh. I did not sleep . I met awesome people both at school and at work. I am still friends with some of my medical assistant classmates and with a  few of my old coworkers. I finished school as a medical assistant. I also got a new job which I am currently working in now.

Getting into the personal side of dating/relationships, while I was in my first few months at my new job…one of my best buds and I went out on a few dates. Words of wisdom – dating  a friend never works out. We are still friends, but that time of my life are memories I would like to forget. So that is that.

I am patiently waiting for my prince charming to sweep me off my feet. Hahaha. What can I say? I am a hopeless romantic, a true HoRo. I’m not gonna go out hunting for him. God will guide him to me when the time is right. That is what I believe. Plus my Mother said that he will find me, so just be patient. 

Today, right now…I am content. Going through all those stepping stones has lead me to where I am today. And my journey is still going. I am still growing as person, and I am still on the road to self discovery. I am looking forward to what lies ahead. The greatest part is not knowing, tis exciting! LOL!

No more looking back, the past is in the past.

Yah this post was pointless but it has kept me busy during class. LOL!

<3 Jesse

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


My parental units got me a Kindle for my birthday!! Its a day early but still…I got an awesome present from the best parents ever! I love them!!


Doesn’t it look awesome?! I already purchased my first book. I bought The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan. I’m so excited to start reading! Hahaha. I am also going to subscribe to some magazines, newspapers and blogs! Oooh how I love to read!!


Monday, January 4, 2010

First day of Cog. Psych.

Fun times. Have the same professor from Intro to Personality Theory. So should be interesting. We have a lot of busy work, but we don’t have a midterm or a paper. THANK GOODNESS! But the busy work is really busy work. We have over a thousand key terms to define by the end of this course…which ends the 30th I believe. HAH!  I don’t even have my book!! I ordered it Saturday. I hope I get it sometime this week.

It is going to be busy January.

OH SHNAP! I am really bummed to have class this Saturday! UGH!

Oh well. This Friday is my birthday hangout [actual birthday is this Wednesday]. My loffer Jaimee made a reservation for Friday at Lei Lounge and we got the fire pit! I am really excited. I’ve never done anything like this for my birthday. So its gonna be fun. Gonna get dolled up! I am off Friday so I will be doing a little shopping in the morning for Friday night.

K. I guess I should pay attention to his lecture. LOL.

<3 Maj

Sunday, January 3, 2010


I am going to change my layout and banner. New year, new look.
So expect a change.

Coming soon.

December 19, 2009 - Heali'i's Polynesian Revuew Holdiay Party

My Hula Ohana! from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

New family game!

Russian Roulette [Nerf Gun Style] from NiokoOno on Vimeo.


Negative Nancy
Jealous Jeff
Bitter Betty
Sad Susan
Positive Petunia
Angry Annie
Happy Herman
Mean Mike
Joyful Jane

Hmmm...what else?


<3 Jesse

Saturday, January 2, 2010

The second day of the new year.

Yes blog numero dos. Lol. I am trying to blog everyday this year. Lets see if I can do it. With school, work and hula keeping me busy I am going to try to keep up with my weighloss blog, personal journal and this blog….I have a lot of writing/typing cut out for me. Hahaha!

Yes I do have a weighloss blog, even has weekly pictures so that I can see the difference from each week. It is currently private…but once I reach my goal I will make it public. So far the picture from week one and the picture from week five [this week] you can see a difference. Its pretty awesome. I’m glad I am documenting it all.

I am so bummed winter break is almost over! I don’t want to go back to school but I need to finish. Ugh. Only ten more months to go. Maaannnnn. I cannot wait!

I do have a plan for after graduation and a backup plan. But that is another blog post [which I will write later on].

Mmmm what else should I type right now?

I finally have the time to blog but I am at a loss for words. Lol.


Friday, January 1, 2010


First blog of the new year.


I cannot believe we are now in 2010. Craziness! I am glad 2009 is over. It wasn’t a good year. It was okay. But not what I expected I guess at the beginning of 2009. Well, there is no looking back now. Never regret…just move forward and live!

My Dad told me before he went off to bed that 2010 is my year. And you know what? I believe him. I am going to make it my year. A time for change…good change of course. And just live life to the fullest.

I don’t believe in new years resolutions. They are meant to be broken. I am just going to go with my goals and try to accomplish them. And live each day to its full potential. It is going to be a great year. I can feel it in my bones. Lol.

Goodbye 2009…and hello 2010!

<3 Jesse