Sunday, May 23, 2010

As I wait...

So...I am currently waiting in my car as my bff sobers up.

As I wait...I am left with my own thoughts. And right now I am not in the best state of mind.

You know what it is? People. More Wait I should say...boys. Because I have yet to meet a man. Hah.

Seriously dating sucks. I truly do wish I can just fast forward a little. Skip the dating.

I am 25 and am getting a whole lotta life lessons all at once. It is overwhelming.

I am bummed about a certain person. I thought he was different. But now I just do not know. Who knows I could be jumping to conclusions and he is just super busy. I'll give him the benefit of the doubt.

I am just being a Negative Nancy. Hey I can't help it. It's what I do best. I guess it is because I have been let down a few feels routine. I should be used to being ignored by now. It's nothing new. But everytime it does happen it brings me down a little bit more.

Whatever I guess.

My heart is fragile and I put it in Gods hands. I have faith he will take care of it.

It does hurt though. And being emotionally hurt is the worst pain.

<3 Jesse